Tuesday, August 24, 2010

A Moment of Silence Please

This morning I woke up feeling really well. My pain and soreness are decreasing, and I'm not really needing the liquid Lortab I was prescribed. I only took one dose yesterday, and that was before bed, but I did take a dose of liquid Tylenol in the afternoon. Be careful when taking medications such as vicodin, lortab, or norco, along with Tylenol/acetaminophen, because along with the hydrocodone (the narcotic), those meds also have Tylenol/acetaminophen. The maximum dose of Tylenol/acetaminophen one should take in a day is 4 grams, or 4000 mg. Too much is bad for your liver!

This morning while getting ready, I started feeling very light-headed, so I wonder if I am a little dehydrated. It is hard to drink and drink and drink, and then run to the bathroom every 10 minutes, but I am forcing myself to get more fluids down. How many days until Friday? My protein shake sounds like a Thanksgiving dinner at this point!

I was telling my husband this morning that being unable to eat right now is like being an alcoholic living in a bar. Food is all around us, isn't it? Not only is it in the fridge and pantry, but it is also on the TV in programs, movies, and commercials. I am learning what a food addict I truly am, and I feel as though I am in mourning. My personal flag is flying at half-staff right now.

Here I am, recovering from surgery, facing a big change in my life, and I cannot eat. My mind is reeling! Alarms and buzzers are going off inside my brain, and warning lights are flashing, because I am not used to coping with a stressful, life-changing situation without turning to food. So I am learning to turn to other sources: God, my husband, family and friends, writing, reading, walking, doing laundry, and basically anything to turn my mind off of the fact that I cannot eat right now. This is going to be a continuous struggle for me, but I know it will get better. It has to get better!

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